its true that you never realise what you've got til you lose it.
cliche yes but true.

we cant stop it from happening though. it seems inevitable.
humans tend to unknowingly take others, be it friends or family, for granted. and its sad when we hurt them without meaning to.

sigh. dunno la. a bit sad. i take so many things for granted, i wish i didn't, but nothing can change that. i guess its time for amends! :)

amerpro's coming up from 4th - 9th dec. i'm pretty excited though i'm not playing cos of lessons. :)

i've decided what to get for him already, interesting how he's the first guy who actually doesn't want something practical, going instead for sentimental keepsakes. i hope he likes it though.
i appreciate all the sending-home-if-its-after-ten. and all the very random and zao sia singing. and all the entertaining, and of course the heart to heart conversations. looks like skype's gonna be in use again! my microphone's dusty i swear.

thank goodness i get to send him off before i head to korea for my ski escapade.
5 layers of clothes. seriously. i might still be freezing my ass off even with that 5 layers.
gonna stuff myself with shitloads of kimchi, and hopefully be able to da bao some home. for my kimchi-loving friends.

i've hardly gone out in the past week or so, was up to my neck with assignments projects and presentations. there's a mock interview next week for comm skill. im shit scared also. sigh. barely have time to breathe. hopefully dec is gonna be better.

i'm choosing my commitments very carefully. every step i take now is thought through carefully. i guess i'm being very cynical. there's so many things holding me back. but i know i wont put myself through it again. its painful, and i wont succumb this time. once you fall, you'll get sucked in deeper and deeper, and thats something i cant afford right now. not now.
sigh.

back to reports.

Meredith(voice over): There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.